Somedays are hard — And that is okay

I am writing to you during my third week of evacuation from my home due to wildfires.

And I’ve realized something today, I’m sad. This sadness does not have a specific cause or cure. It just is today and it might be tomorrow but it also might not.

I’ve had days like this during my normal everyday living at home life and though I felt them I didn’t maybe understand them so much.

Somedays are just sad, hard, or icky without reason.

Yes, I am in an uncomfortable situation currently. I miss my home, my bed, my peace, and my normalcy.

And yes, all of these things can lead to a more fragile state of mind and heart. Shit is tough okay. I’ve got survivor's guilt that my home is okay and sadness that I am not allowed to go to it. I am a homebody who rarely chooses to sleep away and I have slept in multiple other people's spaces for weeks now.

This is all to say though. Yes, there are always so many reasons and possibilities for why a sad day can creep up on you. Somedays are and will be hard. Sometimes you will have a way to get out of the feeling, (check my article on self-care for ideas here) but sometimes there simply won’t be a way.

Somedays are hard, and that is okay.

I’m writing this because I needed the reminder while being in the thick of a hard day and no way that I can really see out of it. But that is just today, I don’t know what tomorrow may feel like. It may be hard too, or it may be good and productive, it may feel light and happy.

Until I’m there though it is an unknown, and maybe you need that reminder also. Today is what it is, tomorrow is a dot-dot-dot, an unknown that could be many things. Let it be, let it form as it comes and let this day that you and I are both in be what it is.

Did I mention that it’s okay that some days are hard?